Not Good At This

Well, apparently, in order to use a blog as a tracker for my journey, I'm going to have to update it more than once every six months.  Suuuuure, no problem!  Between running a business, raising children, working on my marriage, and trying to accommodate my family obligations, this should be a snap.  Uh, I think not.

To summarize the last three months of my life would be this:  Come and Gone.  Whether it is the pseudo-relationship with my son or my grandfather's cancer -- things that I thought I was fairly secure in, have all changed!   Where to start....


How about my grandfather.  He had prostate cancer that metastasized to his bones.... bone cancer!  Great!  He's been on chemo since my birthday in November and *POOF* cancer is almost gone!  Great news!

Now... my son.  He said he wanted to have a relationship with me and when it came down to acting on it, he threw me to the wolves so he could attend a football game.  Yeah, it sucked, but to be honest, I think it was the most merciful thing he could have done.  Now, I'm released from a "relationship" that could go nowhere, be nothing, and result in only pain.

Yeah, the past few months have been interesting, but like I said... although, I may stumble, I will never fall again.